Year-end Summary 2020#
2020 is a year that many people will never forget, especially for me.
Postgraduate Entrance Examination#
Perhaps the biggest decision I made this year was in September when I decided not to take the postgraduate entrance examination and wanted to go straight to work. In fact, my family probably realized it during the summer vacation. I wanted to say something on the way to the train station in September, but I still didn't dare. I can't really listen to those chicken soup they talk about every day. It also indirectly reflects that our family rarely has face-to-face communication about the future or review, always relying on text. But can I guarantee that I can understand it? Today, I looked through the chat records in the pigsty again, and what I saw between the lines was their helplessness.
My classmates all think that I "gave up," but every time I say that it's just a stop-loss for me. After thinking about it carefully, one reason is that I was lazy during the summer vacation, playing basketball every night and thinking about how to play during the day, which put me behind in progress. The most important thing is that I'm afraid. I feel like I don't have the skills and my foundation is weak. If I don't pass the exam, what can I do? Go home? I have long given up on the place where I can't even improve my basketball skills. It's true that computer science is difficult, but I don't think there's anything to be afraid of. It's like every time I talk to friends who live in Ninghai about my future plans, they always try to discourage me or say that I look down on Ninghai. I don't care about other people's opinions anymore. Anyway, if saying these things can make them happy, then it's a good deed.
Life#
The whole junior year passed quickly, experiencing the longest winter vacation, so I spent a long time at home this year. There were many things I wanted to do, but I didn't accomplish any of them. For example, learning frameworks, learning to cook with my dad, practicing basketball, and core training... The best time periods were spent lying in bed or on the basketball court. It seems like every year is a dead loop like this, and that's why I haven't succeeded. It's just like playing games. I'm not good at it, and not to mention basketball. It's been like this for more than ten years, and I don't have any skills at all.
After returning to school in the second half of the year, the counselor from the old college directly forced me out of the old dormitory and moved me to the dormitory upstairs in the new college. We had discussed it before and agreed that they would notify me in advance if I needed to move. Looking at it now, what's the difference between him and a bandit? He only knows how to complete the task and then lick his superiors. The best impression the school gave me in the four years is probably that I was able to live in the newly built Prince Building. Other than that, it's really lacking in humanity. The education system seems to have already collapsed.
I was very lucky in the second half of this year. A classmate who owns a car helped me apply for a seat in the laboratory, and for the next three months, my life was all about the dormitory, the cafeteria, the laboratory, and the basketball court. I also successfully found an internship in the week of the final exams. It's really fortunate to find someone who likes to communicate about technology and play basketball. I'm grateful to this classmate for introducing me to the world of computer science.
Work#
On the day of the interview, I felt very bad. I was very confident on the subway, and even prepared a long list of things to boast about my personal projects and aspirations. But when I arrived, I was asked a series of basic questions and was stumped. They hardly asked about frameworks and other technical aspects. After I went back, I reflected on it a lot. I can create things, but I'm still too shallow in terms of understanding and using them. The foundation is the cornerstone.
In 2020, I made about 350 commits, and most of them were just superficial. When I really wanted to do a good open-source project, it was in the second half of the year. Unfortunately, I went for an internship later and found out that I was really inexperienced. I hope that in 2021, I can develop a good open-source project.
The time spent coding each week has also increased. Before the internship, I was mainly doing CRUD operations. In the past two months, I have learned a lot from my mentor, but overall, I feel like I can't keep up with his thinking and always come up with the worst solutions to problems.
I hope I can seize the opportunity in the spring recruitment of 2021.
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Movies and TV Shows#
At the beginning of the year, I finished watching the latest season of "Money Heist." I really don't like the feeling of being interrupted in the middle.
The best anime of the year was "Attack on Titan."
During the summer vacation, I watched three mind-bending movies: rewatched "Inception" and "Interstellar," and watched "Tenet" once, but I didn't understand it.
In August, I watched "The Eight Hundred," and in October, I watched "The Captain" (it felt like watching Lee Chong Wei a few years ago). On New Year's Eve, I watched "A Little Red Flower."
Games#
I didn't play many games in 2020. My desktop computer has been collecting dust at school... But when I returned to school, I played for a few days and didn't feel like playing anymore.
- Sekiro: Shadows Die Twice (3rd playthrough)
- Rainbow Six Siege finally reached Platinum once
- Cyberpunk 2077 (2 hours, hhh)
- Overcooked 2 (just like arguing in the kitchen)
Music#
Youtube Music is really great. Ever since I watched 1million, I listen to music while looking at my phone.
Year-end playlist
Photography#
After selling my camera and drone, I lost the desire to take videos and photos. Maybe I'm just not cut out for it. I was impulsive at the time, like buying a toy that ended up collecting dust. If I have the opportunity in the future, I hope I can take a class to learn. For now, I don't have the spare money or time for these things.
Badminton#
I played the most badminton in 2020, and it was also the most exciting year after the Universiade. The best time for practice is already gone, and it will never come back. But I have no regrets. I hope that in the future, I can play with some strategy and learn my father's playing style.
🐏#
Finally, I want to thank the friends I met after coming to the west side of the city. Everyone is very nice, and I even met someone from my hometown. I feel lucky that I haven't had to start from scratch in building social connections from childhood to adulthood. Maybe this is also a kind of luck. Thank you all for taking care of me.
Thank you to my roommates who play games with me.
Thank you to my friends who play badminton with me.
Thank you to my parents for understanding and respecting my decisions.
In 2021, I hope to become more disciplined and move towards my goals!